I never had that recipe of philosophy for a lifetime, i never formulated a fine one. Just that, only now have i realised how a happy smile can lift me up. 

Thinking a lot.

(I have been in deep thought these days. Matters seem to lay their selves in front of me, stimulating my judgement and my frontal lobe. As i browse through the unpublished posts in my blogger dashboard, I read these unfinished lines of my poem. I don't know how it made  mevery lonely. I thought so that it was because of the abuse of neglect i did, and the supposed theme of the piece isn't as whole as my mindset before my momentum stopped.)

I might decide to publish this in its unfinished state, So to remind my self that no matter how I started with full enthusiasm , I still struggle on how to finish my work.


'we stare at endless height
though darkness dominates the skies
and the moon stands the only light
to draw the glistening orbs in your eyes

your words sing music to my ears
your touch is warm, dilating my pores
and then breeze began to offer tears
to the grasses of earthly floors

the wind blows to kiss your darling
as i whistle to keep them blowing
how long will you have me waiting
to kiss your lips as they stood watching

dont cover your face with your delicate hair
i wish to see your smile and the lines up there.
But the happy sounds i hear seem to fade away
stay will you and never part by day

tears are flowing from your face
while dew drops fill in little pace
you were lonely, i never knew
tired of love you doubted to be true.


I cuddle, hugged and braced you
in my arms i offer comfort
and counter 


The Bold letters are my new attempts, and I know my poetic sense is deteriorating. 

Papa's Day

My father. The Man of the House. 

in here my Papa dances, i think he's listening to an old song,or some Avril Lavigne single. Taken when I was 16. My brothers were small, they had transformed quite immense. 

      My father is a history fanatic. I can still remember the days where he used to tell stories about cradles of civilization. I must admit, I have taken a liking on them. They contributed greatly to my interests. With the easy access to internet in our house, my papa makes a time of his life researching for nuggets of information for his lectures and reconnect new trends in history than skimming on obsolete and dusty old-fashion books in the library. 

     I think I'm having a flashback... *ripples*

  Back when I was a dog, ^*&#@* I mean a child, our parents quarrel all the time. I don't remember why, i think its given that I can't recall them at all. Yet for some reason I thought that they're breaking apart, and my mama jokingly asks me if to whom shall I go with if it happens. I chose my papa. I'm happy it never happened. It turns out my parents were attached to strings of a normal married life. I was young then, and I never figured it out that way. My mama's weakness is a notorious amount of cuddles and kisses from my papa, and I don't know what goes beyond that.

I love my parents! and my siblings! And this cheesy family. 

Diana by Princess feat. Nene

 These videos were taken long time ago just before I entered college. The time when we were so obsessed with the gadgets our mom brought from Taiwan. My sister Princess Guenever is a fan of  Diana by Paul Anka, and my fourth brother Mark Frederick "Nene" couldn't get the spotlight though knowing the lyrics of the song, so he settled being the back-up dancer. I love my siblings. 

My sister Guenever is an aspiring singer and we leave her to her business. In here she sings Two Voices One Song from Barbie & the Diamong Castle. Having no choice because she dominates the television quite often , I am forced to watch the film. Incidently, I like it, the songs especially.

As a matter of fact.

Guenever Isoude Celestial, those names are from royalties in English history and literature, just like her names suggest, she actually acts like one at home. Not doing any household chores and all.  

Boy they're so so big now. Nene in high school, and Princess entering high school too, in K-12 next year.

One Boring Night in the Hospital

I seriously admit, we hadn't been feeling very well because of the combined desperation to gain scores in the hospital plus the-day-before's lost battle (failure), that means we practically allowed the 400 Php + float away. 

Nevertheless.

I'm loving Disney. Its a magnanimous part of my childhood. In tapes and cds we watched Disney films, we virtually aren't deprived of entertainment appropriate our age. A Whole New World is my favorite, and among the duet songs i am very esteemed to sing. haha. I find it very viral. It never misses a repetition once i sing it during class/duty hours. 

And I forgot to tell you. We completed our scores already.

I Heart the 90s

2:20am Phil.Time@Bed

I can't sleep. Thought that's why the timid night made me do some online research and video surfing about my favorite 90's bands. Ive been thinking a lot these days, maybe because the recent clinical rotation I had was with psychiatric patients. Now, as much as i want to disclose information about how they think........ i guess that never was the sole purpose of this post. Along with the deep thinking, I listened to songs of the 90s.

I was born in 1992. These bands were alive then, singing their hits, and i thank God they managed to extend their fame till the 21st century. I never had all the enthusiasm for the songs of the present.

Fixation is a term used when children failed to accomplish the tasks during stages of development according to S. Freud (e.g oral, anal,phallic etc.), thus affecting they personalities as they grow up. [just a little view]

and I'm undeniably and irrevocably in love with 90's songs.

we danced to the beat of Aqua's Dr. Jones and Cartoon Heroes . Their songs give me air of nostalgia that soon develops to neuralgic episodes of longing to get back to the times when i used to stroll the disco stage, feeling my youth. (the Filipino's concept of a disco stage is a plaza with a ball hanging on above head, allowing colorful lights to spread in all directions, usually in town and barangay settings with music coming from a giant sound system.. no one ever gets distracted by it i noticed.) Awesome music videos.

The Spice Girls is an all girl band, as observed above..haha!  The domination of boy bands motivated the formation of Spice Girls thru audition screenings, and down came the slots to Mel B., Mel C., Geri, Victoria and  Emma.  They've tracked rocky roads before reaching the peak of their career just like any band, and the widespread fame of their hit album Wannabe made them the Best-selling female group of all time, whoah!. Each of them has names ending in Spice: Posh, Baby, Scary, Sporty and Ginger. In my days the girls in the neighborhood copy their actions in Stop.  I never had the slightest feeling of shock, but rather an outdated disappointment for Geri leaving the group in 1998. That time, internet is seemingly unknown at my age, and at my place. They made a comeback concert in 2008, and me--- coping up! Thanks to Youtube.

Who would ever forget A1! I pity my younger brothers! and my sister- who could  have had learned the explicit idea of the word crush if she was born, earlier. I could make a who blog for them! (im actually ignoring my notes tonight just so i can think on what to write...) I've recently put their songs in my phone, taking turns with some of Westlife's and Boyzone's because of capacity problems some vain animal contributed. They've had me shufflin' and dancin' in the shower, in front of the mirror and anywhere i could view myself comfortably. Listen to Ready or Not, Be The First To Believe and  Everytime. Paul Marazzi is not here.




Never have I heard it this way. Emotional..sending goosebumps.. Fans Forever!!! T_T

All the Pacific Islanders can never say that they've not known Westlife. Almost all of their songs were famous. They made excellent renditions of songs from ABBA ,Barry Manilow and many more. I can still remember the day i sang I have a dream, where the judges think of giving way for the best of the bests to win..  Even my relatives in the island have taken cared of posters and magazines containing their faces. An evidence of  Westlife's longevity, that merely groups nowadays could barely suffice. F4 for example did not last long, however they made awesome remarks in the Philippines that never will be forgotten.
Westlife disbanded this year. :(

Boyzone is a legend. I was addicted to their songs, helping me realise  there were too many II've been missing in the past, although some I can remember.. The songs before tend to whisper in my ear, excellent composition with excellent performers. My classmates were watching me as I do some actions from Boyzone's hit Love me for a Reason, and that was the beginning of me being branded as maka-oldies... 

Right now in college, staying the city, with once in two to three month of home visits, I got to have all the access to everything in the web, I repeat EVERYTHING... *evil grin*.. I took the chance and traced the things craved by my soul to remember or reminisce at the least..'coz we can never bring them back.

I'm feeling, I've made some Wikipedia extension for this. With the birth of SOPA..

No choice but to select the topmost search result.

My classmates were teasing me about my  song preference. They must have gone over the 90's, but i havent, and i laughed back. One day, i reported that i have new songs in my phone, no astonishment at all, 'coz new songs only suggests.. newly stored OLD songs.. haha!


90's Song Fixated...


Sorry, Grammar-Literacy Low..