HATE:LOvE

It hurts me now that you found someone else to offer your love.

It hurts me now that you never talked to me.

It hurts me now because you smile so often.

It hurts me so because its not me who caused it.

It hurts me even more for you look so bright and charming.

While i take the stress and stare at your bearing.

I hate the fact that you hated me.

I hate the fact that i hated you.

I hate the fact its over

I hate it.

HATE.

I'll shoot you now and see you in after life.

May it be in heaven or hell, I'll shoot anyone who comes in the way between us.

DEAR CRUSH.

Love me back.

LOVE. 

Friends

Bethany, Pia May,  and Praise

The ladies from Duenas (dwen-yas). Being with them is exhausting to the pocket and fun to the heart.

"Matulokay duman ta ni bag-o matapos ang semana," says Pia.

"Kulang lang ko thirty Mark, bwas lang." says Betha.

"Please, pwede kapalihog sang Heaven's Torte."  requests Praise.

"Sin-o nga ati matuwad?" 

I saw my eyes.
They have brown to hazel irises.
and the bluish pupils.
I hope they won't mean metabolic disease. 

PASIMPLE LANG.
Just smile even though you're uncertain if the camera's into you. 
What if it is?

Bulky week: for what?

Girl you make my speakers go BOOM TARAT TARAT!

This Lagaw swam 102 kilometers from my hometown to quench my craving for freshly cooked fish. 

My Singaporean friend Karen told me this was her favorite book, Since then, i consulted booksale stalls at all the malls for a 2nd hand copy of this. 2012 is a lucky year. 

REIGN. My "A your adorable B your so bubbly and C your so cute" cousin!

Sept30. I'll spice up my night with my bukayo from Duenas , this Chinese Hopia and a nugget of wisdom   for a young man.

Raping the webcam and my 2nd hand books. The Hp Planner was my gift for myself last December for a year of planning and time management.

UNDER THE COVERS.  Harry's beaming smile. 

The Choices I made in symbols.

THAT SO RANDOM. The symbols I and Mayee (she scratched my name and turned it to Ngyek, what is wrong with that woman!) ranked according to our preference, principle and etc. I don't know why i pondered a lot before finishing this. I chose triangle first, for life is like tatsulok and square last because i don't like it and in reality there isn't what we call fair and square (although i fight for it).

I know that this will be another tool for self- assessment so i took it seriously. I know that the choices i made from there on will affect my ways (if not totally) my future and (affected) my past.  It turned out:
Triangle means my Vision; Cross means Relationship; the twirl or swirly line for Change; Circle for Wholeness (whoah!) and Square for Stability. 

As you can see in the picture.  I (indirectly) chose Vision as my goal. Relationships will lead me there, what I have and what I am right now is Change, I had wholeness in the past (why? what about now?) and stability is what i neglected in the past.

These wholeness, change, vision etc are abstract things, you will have to take time thinking and delving deeper into them. My life is riddle, i don't know who's the teller. Unsolved and unknowable.

Based on a psychological study, a crush only lasts for a maximum of 4 months. If it exceeds, you are already in love.

-ikaw nagid ya! ikaw na!